*~~*dream girl*~~*

02:15 pm

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01:29 pm - So Sorry!

Man O Man. I am like the worst friend ever!
I should be in or on the way to Nashville right now, but i am lame. I wish that i was there! I am poor and because of that i can't exactly justify going on a road trip and missing a whole day of work! I am so sorry. I wish that i was there and i miss you guys so much! Have tons of fun and take lots of pictures so that you can send them to me one day! Love ya!

Current Mood: sad

12:19 pm

Okay lets just say that Ashlei is an IDIOT!


I knew that Wilma hit South Florida pretty badly, but untill i saw the damage that it actually did, i didnt understand. and it is begginning to make me nervous. I know that my dad can basically survive anything, and he basically has, but noone in my family has heard from him at all since the hurricane hit. and i thought that it was just my dad being well my dad. but I am actually kinda scared for him. i dont really know what to say.... I guess just if you could keep him in your prayers. he put me through ALOT of crap but hes still my dad ya kno?....












on another note......

"HIS" birthday is in a few days(not my dad)....... and i have no idea what to do

Current Mood: confused

01:31 pm - DO IT DO IT

comment with your name and...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you the song that reminds me most of you.
9. I'll tell you if i ever had any intrest in you whatsoever.
10. I'll tell you, if we picnicked what i'd bring.
11. I'll tell you where i'd bring you and what we'd do if you visited me.
12. I'll want you to tell me where you'd take me, and what we would do.
13. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

02:29 pm

ten years ago:. I was 8, thinking that I was so cool. I was all about soft-ball and I couldn’t get enough of it.

five years ago: Freshman in High School, thinking I was a bad a**, new to Florida trying to make new friends and fit in, beginning my walk

one year ago: Senior in High School, dating a boy who was trouble, taking really hard classes and not having to do anything in them, just finding out that my brother had a son

yesterday: Work, then pick up my uncle to take him to the doctor then grocery store……, went to Marshalls, got some food…

snacks i enjoy: wheat thins, M&M s, Flaming Hot Cheetos, cheese, chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, pepperoni

what would you do with 100 million dollars: give to charity, pay off my bills, get my dad out of trouble, get him a place to live, help my aunt and uncle out with all that they are going through, get me a house some where, in my house build a darkroom, buy all sorts of awesome photography stuff, get a lap top, and if there is still money travel! All over the place

5 places i would run away to: Colorado, South Florida, Madrid, Italy, Ireland, Australia, Hawaii, Chicago,

5 things i would never wear: a Camo jacket, fake nails so long that they curl under, fuzzy ugg boots, my heart on my sleeve….OHHH SHNAP!

5 bad habits: bouncing my knee, biting my nails, sarcasm, not reading my Bible as much as I should, stressing out too much

5 biggest joys: Jesus, good friends, good food, memories, taking pictures

5 favorite toys: my car, my cell phone, my camera, my car, my car again I guess…



Everyone i know to tag.... has to do or has already done it so.... do whatcha want...

11:05 am

so i totally screwed up what i was trying to say....


That long song with the lyrics.... i gave those lyrics to my dad in a letter...WOW sorry about any confusion.....

09:04 am

Because Of You
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way to never let it get that far

Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me,
but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way, and its not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry, because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break, when it wasn’t even whole to start with


I watched you die, I heard you cry, every night in your sleep.
I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me.
You never thought of anyone else you just saw your pain.
And now I cry in the middle of the night, doin the same damn thing

Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don’t know how to let anyone else in

Because of you I’m ashamed of my life, because its empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you…


~~ so i gave that song those lyrics to a song awhile back.... the song came on the radio the other day... i told whoever i was with that i gave the lyrics to my dad and they said that i looked like her... i wouldnt find that so weird if other people hadn't told me that before.... so strange


i went and saw Fog last night..... pretty lame
i went and saw The Exorcism of Emily Rose the other night.... scary as crap.

Nothing much to say, I guess; just the same as all the rest
Been tryin' to throw your arms round the world.
And a woman needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle
When you're tryin' to throw your arms around the world.

04:22 pm

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02:11 pm

I'm writing all sorts of letters to people. if you want one hit me up, let me know!






Granted I would like one back in return.... That's not to much to ask is it?

Current Mood: nostalgic

01:46 pm - Good times, Great Oldies!

So its been like 8 months since the last time that i updated!

A lot has changed. Some for better, some for worst. I am not proud of some of the decisions that i have made. But in the same breath I don't regret them either. I have learned a lot about who i am.

Thank God that i graduated from High School. it was a great day.
Since the last time that i updated my dad has been living in a Half-Way house in South Florida. he has been completly sober since Feb. 2005. that is so amazing! i, for the first time, am actually proud of him. he came to my graduation and was on his very best behavior, even with all with my family all around him.
My brother, Eric, is getting married Oct. 1, 2005. I am so excited for him!
I am still living in VA. I am going to school and i have a job. i live with a roomate, out on my own! its hard at times, kinda lonely, but i truley love it! Some days i wish that i went to Chicago. Some days i wish that i went somewhere else. But VA is so beautiful. God has blessed me with an amazing roomate, great friends, a good job, and a wonderful school. I feel so lucky to be where i am, that its hard to wish for anything else.

But i must say that i miss the beach a whole lot! But when the leaves change here..... nothing can compare.

I do miss my South Florida friends though! I hope all is well with everyone. if you feel so inclined and you want to write me a letter, i would love it! if its easier i love phone calls too! if you write me i will write you back!
6408 River Rd.
Matoaca, VA 23803

804 651 5174

12:46 am - MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hello all

no way no November will see our goodbye
when it comes to December it's obvious why
no one wants to be alone at Christmas time
do they baby?
~~~~~~~~~~~~ ohh wait november did see our goodbyes.....

ooooo ohhh oooo.... i got lots of cds! woot woot hollah!
talked to happy people!~ man i love happy old people!

Christmas was fun:
Brother asked his girlfriend to marry him last night! (she said yes)
other brother brought his baby into town! it was the first time id seen him! SOOO CUTE
found out really bad stuff about my Dad, what else is new?
talked to....... =weird vibe
awsome family time
lots of loving going on!
i love Christmas!
i got to have a white Christmas in the best city in the world!
got to talk about college plans.... dum dum dum
got blammed for stuff=always fun
lots of happy people
lots of good gifts givin out this year!
all in all if it wasnt for the dad stuff Christmas would be like a 9 on the Christmas rictor scale!



soo tired!

Current Mood: blank

03:52 pm

so im suprised i even still have this thing!

Birthday was awsome thanks so much!! (it was a mad long time ago i just havent updated in like 800000000000 years)

school is so lame, expecially when people drop out for no appearent reason. But i take Photography which makes everything soo awsome.
i found out the other day that i can get into the school that i really want to and its not just a dream! YAY!! yea i kno i am a huge slacker and i havent even filled out A application! woot go me~

Goin to CHI-town for Christmas!

i miss a certain person.... erg....

Got 2 new pairs of shoes! a jacket and a pretty scarf yesturday




gotta love those crazy girls who steal no not steal but make your boyfriends like them... long story... Ashlei had a boyfriend... Ashlei had a best friend... now Ashlei has neither. Fun stuff





Living with what i got.

Current Mood: geeky

11:33 am - 4 inch heals make you really tall!

again i am at my aunts office because i have no life and nothing better to do then go to work with her and play on the computer!

school is well school, and dont worry because i am already sick of the crap that goes on there and the people there and i've only been there for 4 DAYS!!
classes:
1st English Honors
2nd French 3 (and no worries cuz i dont know anything in that class!)
3rd Chemistry
4th Photography= sooo awsome i have the greatest teacher ever!
5th Government with the funnyest class ever!
6th Physics with what must be the easyest teacher ever!
7th Prob. and Stat. (which dont worry i feel like i am in a class with 4th graders= soo easy)
So all in all my classes arent that hard but i just hate that school and prolly more than half the people in it! ha ohh well this year then im done with those people!

my uncle left! which i shouldnt be happy about but i am he was sooo mean and unhappy here so now he is going to stay with his mom in Iowa for awhile and try to get a job up there. my hope is kinda that he does and that we all move there but the whole new kid at school thing gets kinda old really fast! so that wouldnt be fun. but my aunt kinda wants to.... well lets just say that she is unhappy with her marrige. so yea... please pray for her and that whole situation. well on his trip back he decided that he wanted to have a cell phone and he wanted to take mine cuz he doesnt have one, and he couldnt take my aunts cuz hers is through work. well after several conversations with my aunt about it cuz i was very angry with his choice of taking my phone, in which she said i was being selfish and that i needed to just make him happy and let him take it well that didnt go over too well. but to make a longer story short he didnt take it. in time and by himself he decided that he didnt need it because his mom has a phone and his sister who lives like 2 miles down the road has a phone and 2 cell phones. so yay~

therefore (points finger up in the air) we can still talk.

i feel emo today! weird i havent felt this emo in a while which is strange.

Today's the day I pray that we make it through make it through the fall make it through it all and I don't wanna fall to pieces I just want to sit and stare at you I don't want to talk about it and I don't want a conversation I just want to cry in front of you I don't want to talk about it cuz I think that I'm in love with you, you're the only one, I'd be with till the end

Current Mood: pensive

04:44 pm

well considering that i havent updated in like a billion years a lot has happened!

today i got my hair cut-- in that process i also managed to get it died and highlighted.... wasnt supossed to happen but i kinda needed it, change is good!

i start senior year in like 3 weeks or so! kinda nervous but really excited! i have to work really hard this year i managed to get this insane schedual(sp) and therefore ashlei will not be going out too much this year ohh wait ashlei didnt go out much last year! ha ohh well! but yea im kinda nervous about that whole thing, im scared about college and things of that sort! i'll be ok and i will get over it!

senior pictures are on monday... shall be interesting

i've been on this insane schedual(sp) of staying up till.. well it varies from like normal time like 11 to like crazy time like 4 in the morning! its all worth it tho i couldnt do it if i didnt have someone fun to talk to so there ya go! in those long talks i've learned a lot about a really awsome person and i've learned a lot about my self and about what i want in life and better yet what i want to get out of life! so yea the conversations are awsome! not to mention i now have this awsome friend that lives like 5 hours away from me! hehe

i still manage to get in trouble even though i dont go anywhere. i tend to just stay home most of the time then there is the occational (sp) ashlei going out to hang out with her friends and when that happens i tend to always get scolded at one point or another for that! but hey i wouldnt be a teenager if i didnt get in trouble right?!

~~ please pray for my aunt and uncle. my uncle still needs a job and my aunt has one but that puts a damper on their relationship, so yea if you would please just pray for them and their relationship. thank you!

i know its late but i must say a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the greatest guy ever SAM PUTNAM!!! I love you!

........right now i am at my aunts work on a guy i dont knows computer! always good!


as much as i really havent been doing much i have been getting a lot of stuff done! i went to the dentist, went well, went to the doctor, went good, getting my pictures done monday, went to 2 different Churches, went okay, went all over the midwest, saw my beloved "sister" AMY get married... just all sorts of stuff there really is more but i just dont want to type it all out!

this past week i have hung out with 3 out of 3 of the best girls in all of the state of VA! so thats good!


If I had my way I'd never get over you today's the day
I pray that we make it through make it through the fall
make it through it all and I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you I don't want to talk about it and I don't want a conversation I just want to cry in front of you I don't want to talk about it cuz I'm in Love with you you're the only one, I'd be with till the end when I come undone you bring me back again BACK UNDER THE STARS back into your arms....

Current Mood: optimistic

01:25 pm

i need more time!




~~ talkin till the wee hours of the morning really puts a damper on your day!





.... hopefull that days will pass quickly

12:58 am - never underestimate...

no matter how hard i try, no matter how bad or how much i want it.... your just not the one for me and i think i get that now.... after tonight, after thinking its just not ment to be

you never wanted it as bad as i did anyways....


feelings inside my head i dont kno but i begin to understand


im missing something, something big.... i really need to find a church, a good one... im changing too much and not exactly for the better...


"sitting here crying i cant help but to remember you. i cant help but think about then."

i leave tomarrow to go see my sister get married! then i come back here for a day then its back to VA and back to the rules

loose weight what?



... im still waiting for things to change...

03:42 pm

i need help.....

i am completly confused about sooooo many things.......

......... would u be there for me if i asked for ur help?

10:25 pm

thinking about things is hard to do when u have soo much crap to think about....

desicions to make and not enough time to make them in...

rar! why do u tell me the things that you do?! i mean im glad that u trust me and everything but really you dont need to tell me about how u "spit game"

i hate that i am such a roller coaster of a person... im like wicked happy one minute then like completly upset the next

i really think that i need to find a church, not having one is really starting to get to me, i mean i've wanted to find one and i've been sortive searching but i mean i want to start hardcore looking for the right one...

... i wish that i was the one u thought about....

(yes about a boy)

jordan w. and i have been talkin a lot lately and that has been super awsome! shes such a great friend!

...sweet dreams are made of these

Current Mood: contemplative

05:53 pm

the postal service puts me in this mello, calm almost upset mood and today with all i have to think about i dont need it... but yet i wont turn it off... they are very good, thank you jordan for giving me this cd! and i mean that as non-sarcasticly as humanly possible.

like i said in the above section of todays post... i have a lot to think about.. some good some bad... some undesided

have fun Christ Church kids at camp!

im glad that i talked to u but i kinda wish we didnt talk at all...

~should have just stuck with me. that way neither one of us would be feelin this pain.

Current Mood: mellow

12:42 am

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